Insights, gifts, and the honor of being witness and companion alongside beautiful souls during their most vulnerable moments of heartache and transformation.
I think when people blog they write from a place of inspiration and from what is happening in their life in the present moment. I have read so many blog posts this year, on my own quest for learning. And I look forward to a future blog post from myself about best practices for facing anxiety and coping with change. Maybe this will hold some of those pearls. But today, as always, I speak from the heart.
I used to study the Jewish calendar and the energy of time. It is mystical, but it is not so “out there” and impractical. In fact, it can be a great guide and validation of real life experiences at times. The energy of time mimics so much the changes in Mother Nature of the seasons. So I began my year in August, when the children went back to school and the Jewish month of Elul where we reflect and plan and envision the new year ahead. I had big plans and wonderful visions, this has been a big year of change for me. Embarking on the journey of returning to my career, becoming an entrepreneur, and opening my own therapy practice.
I notice threads running through people’s lives and my own. When I was 17, picking my college major I wanted to go into psychology. Instead I took a computer quiz that suggested accounting and went with that. Forward a few years to my senior year in college, working part time doing accounting, not loving it, or my classes that had become far more challenging by then. I was sad, Oye, how could I do this the rest of my life?
One fine day I saw a flyer up on campus for volunteers for a crisis and suicide hotline, no experience necessary, all training provided! Perfect, I have no experience, let’s volunteer and scratch that itch in me for meaningful conversation with people, and not numbers.
What a joy, I loved it!!! I have always had a deep soul that loved hearing people’s stories and their journey. Many of my fellow volunteers were students in the Social Work program, and once again, I took an elective class, this time in the school of Social Work. Hallelujah, sound the chimes, there is a G-d in heaven, this is sooooo me!
I speedily finished that bloody bachelors in Accounting because I was too close to being done to change majors and went straight away into the Masters in Social Work program. I so love my path of work, because it is so aligned with my core truths, beliefs, and passions. How to sum up ones core truths, Oye? Perhaps I can borrow from a story in my faith. A student once asked the revered Rabbi Hillel “Teach me the Torah while standing on one foot.” The Rabbi replied “Do not do unto others that which is distasteful to you, that is the entire Torah, the rest is commentary, now go and study it.”
That’s a very good summary. And to add, Some of my beloved and most fervent core truths this year have been: Be authentic, do your best, trust the process, study a lot, ask questions, seek answers, have faith, lean into it.
Being in the mystery of a new chapter is a wonderful place to be. There is quite a magical feeling when everything is so new, it feels very alive, vibrant, and vital. The passion of new love, it won’t be like this always, as I learn and grow and develop, and so I think I will savor it some more, this wonderful new chapter.
What can I say about this chapter of being in this chair, of having the privilege of people opening their hearts and stories to me. It is hard to describe in words. It reverberates in my soul. It touches me deeply, and it changes further the fiber of who I am. I am humbled and enriched to sit in this chair, and share this intimate chapter of someone’s life as they feel their vulnerability,
feel their sorrow and celebration too, and question life, and find their truths.
I was so relieved recently ta therapist of 25 years share candidly how honored and privileged and humbled she feels to sit in this chair and hear people’s stories. That is how I feel. My teenage son said to me not long ago “Oh mom, you are in the honeymoon phase.” That therapist in the webinar, and the feeling deep in my soul, tell me otherwise.
More stories to come in the future. I close with this one little pearl of faith. Turns out, that bachelor’s degree in business school has served me well. I have been able to become an entrepreneur and open my practice rather simply and easily. I have met all my first year goals. Don’t get me wrong, it hasn’t been all easy and it hasn’t been all me either. This has been a collaborative effort for sure, I don’t at all feel that I made this happen on my own. A source greater than me guided me to take that silly test at age 17, and all the rest of my story.
I believe we have tons of free will, and that there too exists, a source greater than us, that offers guidance (particularly when we ask and are open to it) and helps us on our journey of life, love, joy, heartbreak, loss, and learning. When we look back, we can see the threads of our journey weave together and create the beautiful tapestry we become. It is not always clear in the moment, and somehow in its mystery, it is truly a work of art.